live.laugh.love

i still have two tests tomorrow. pehm and computer. bah, my grades are like ultra low right now because i don't feel like studying because of the drama's at home. so anyway, i cut myself at school today. i got 10 cuts and everyone was like, "geez vanessa, it's just a guy. are you that depressed?" . stupid heads. no guy is worth my tears and blood. they also said that when i went to school after crying real hard. i need not explain to them. tessa's really mad at me because she saw the blade i used. Precious and Klier, too. but not that much. i already promised it won't happen again. i'm glad the two of them understood.
christmas party an the 14th. i have nothing to wear! we have our kringles again but this time, we use code names, like in grade school. this isn't my first christmas with my parents separated cause for the last two years, even when my mom still lived at our house, we would go to davao and spend it with our sisters. i wanna die! uhh. i thought if they split they wouldn't fight anymore, but it didn't change. boo

yup. i do. anyway, i was rank 38 for first quarter and now.. 27! weehh.. i'm so inspired to study na.. exams' on the 23rd and 26th.. so i'ma rush.. i'm so happy! pero, we all know na when bad things happen, something better is coming. so, that was the good thing.. the bad is.. kyle flirted with a girl on drum corp. practice and im like, kakabati palang namin, gagawa naman siya ng reason for us to fight?! and this time, siya pa yung may ganang umiwas.. uhh! pero whatever. im not even his girlfriend to have a right to be jealous. woah. my sister is gonna kill me if she reads this. sige. iiwasan ko rin siya! things will fall into place.. ;] gtg gotta study! ;]

..in my quest for getting a higher level on teentalk, i tried to reply on every topic as much as possible. crazy, i know. so i came across the gossip girl thread. i know it's not airing on any philippine network yet so i kind of got discouraged to watch. but of course, being with the mission i had i looked for a post in which i could reply to. and there it was. a site linking to the latest episodes of the show. i totally forgot about my reply and just clicked on the link. goodbye the o.c, hello gossip girl! hehe. i wish i could read the book but i'm saving up for all the lemony snicket's books including the secret letters so, i'm just sticking to the show even though i'm sure the books are way better.
i totally forgot what comes with school absences. my classmate texted me the other day that we were seatmates now, up front. i'm so pissed. but when bad things happen, good things follow right? ohh mann i hope so. i did my multiply site. it's not realy the way i wanted it to be, but it was ok, i guess. it's safe to check it out now. hehe.. the link's on the side.
inna, my cousin who's classmates with Yssa said that Yssa made me a letter. hmm..

soo.. what do you think of the layout? ok, i know it's not reaaalll good and it doesn't have that much originality, but c'mon, not bad for a beginner in blogger's templates right? if you know what i mean..
i'm not the friendliest person in the world, i know that. i NEVER think of approaching people and just say hi. i meet pople through my friends. and i only got to have friends here at school when i talked to them during group discussions or when i borrow their stuff. and i only talked to my seat mate last year 2-3 times a week. but i really wanna gain friends here na kaya lang i don't know how.. waah! mommie!
i've been absent for almost a school week now. school week because in the real week, there are 7 days while on a school week there are 5. hehe. i'm making stuff up. woah. it's 2:17am. I wonder how late would i wake up tomorrow... ^__^
lauren's birthday kanina. she's 14! time runs so fast. 14 that's like a real/mature teenager. coz when you're thirteen you just start out with all the new things you think you can when you reach that age but when you're 14 they'll be more stuff. like responsibilities, permanent expectations and stuff. but i'm not turning 14 yet in 6 months. tee-hee.
so tomorrow i do my multiply site and on monday i'm sleeping late again coz i'll be copying maybe tons of notes and i'll be calling my classmates bout the topics on bio coz our teachers there, yes plural... they just talk and you can't copy. i miss my real bio teacher. she's so pretty and impressive. she walks in to our classroom with a stick of chalk[unfortunately, or section doesn't get the white board] and a hand fan. and she can talk for 2 hours about stuff that make my nosebleed but make me say 'oohh' like a kid every now and then..
my left eye's not so red anymore.. i better get to sleep. goodnight poh! ;]

my sister's here and we never talk. we're the only people in my dad's house right now and we still don't. this is fun. nah, just kidding of course. i miss her. i miss it when she annoys me with all her HTML questions and when i annoy her with my stealing of her clothes. i can't talk to her because i know i disappointed her, because i probably hurt her, because i actually lied to her face so many times. i want to say sorry to her but i'm scared that she won't treat me like she used to. now it's valerie she's hanging out with more. uuhhh! school's back and i'm proud to say i haven't talked to ar all day. i'm doing this for my sister. i'm not gonna let her know about this now because i know now's not the best time. Tracy[the sister] curled her hair. i wanna curl mine too! but it's too short right now, i cut my hair like armpit-short last September, now it's November it's just 3 inches longer. grr! soo tagal.. I'm using PanOxyl right now and it's working. I'm happy!

got some homework na..
-memorize Tagalog speech before Wednesday[yikes!]
-do Filipino homework
-research Korea's geography

I went to Davao last week and bought a bag and flip-flops. i had 1,200 with me and i went home with 600.. sigh, my pants got torn and i tried on a cute pair which cost only 500 but Riley and Ally were effin rushing me coz they wanted to ride the bump cars. such kids, sigh,

will change layout soon..

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okay, first, i get mumps.[then it heals,] now i got a sore eye? what is this all about? i'm really pissed cause i'll be missing so much at school(works).. but being absent's coolio! haha

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Tracy talked to me! it was her demanding "kain na." again which nung una sinagot ko siya [that was the other day, so yeah we "talked"] but this time i wanted to be nice, i was all mm-hmm, and then she sat in front of me while i was eating and i was really freaked out and scared at the same time and then she started asking stuffs like, "why are you sick?" "where's your mumps again?" and she would tease me that there was green goo coming out of it or something. really funny, [it's a start] and then she "bragged" about the cute 10-peso notebooks she bought like she used to. i'm really happy.. ;]

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