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my effin sister hates me for having a boyfriend. for being imperfect, for lying to her and disappointing her. that's not so bad. she won't talk to me forever. uhhhh. i'm sick right now. i have mumps and they hurt so bad and my sisters won't come near me coz they might get infected. anyway, sem break na and i NEED to go to Davao to buy some stuffs for school. so the tests were terrible. Klier got on my nerves with my "helping her out", if you know what i mean..

Klier: Van, pacopy mamaya sa english ha..
Van: Sure ba. Diba nagstudy ka sa araling panlipunan?
Klier: Oo, sige pacopy kita dun mamaya kasi nakastudy man ako.. basta wag mo ko kalimutan mamaya huh?
Me: ok.
right before AP test..
Klier: Van, wag mo akong kalimutan mamaya ha..
Me: eh wala ako naka study dyan 'no! tsaka sabi mo ikaw ang nakastudy dyan!
Klier: konti man lang..
Me: uh.. kay Ariel nalang ako magpapatulong
Klier: sige, pasa mo sa kin ung sagot nya huh..[didn't]

geez, she is soo annoying! i mean, she even copied word-per-word my homeroom test about family values and stuff so di ba dapat iba talaga yung sagot kasi bout sa family??
then nung isang test mas mataas ang score ko kinompare niya talaga.. uh! nakakainis! tapos nung di ko na siya pinakopya sa math, mas mataas pa rin ang score niya... i don't know why pero i hate her!

just so you know, i don't answer my tests 1-70 by cheating, i only do that in math.. but the other stuffs, i study for them and i just ask for my seatmates' answers if i'm not sure in some items.. got that?

ok. that's it. i'd had enough. i weigh 92 lbs now and that is already wayyy too much. and he lied to me! urgh! the nerve! oh, i want to kill him! i want to pull all his hair out! how dare he? it's a good thing he's not coming to the youth camp tomorrow then i'd be able to get myself used to him not being around me for 3 days!.. hahahaha

so this morning i went to school with no food in my stomach and felt like the weakest person on earth[which actually feels good for me] but then i took a bite-sized piece of chocolate and popped it in my mouth because i needed glucose. then i ate some pork thingy for lunch and then that's when i lost control. i had 80 pesos, all-new paper 20's straight for the bank and i go home with just 20 pesos in my wallet. grr! so much for "emergency money"! anyway, my computer's kind of retarded again and it's closing the ie programs.
check out my updated to-do list!
P.S. i hate this girl who used to go to my school.. she said she was coming over this afternoon and my friends waited for her in a cafeteria and she stood them up! she even says that she joined this math olympics thingy in her school when she was even worse than me in math back in freshman year!

i'm here at the cafe again coz our internet at home is broken. ^__^ i went out right after bell rang i'm pretty sure my teacher's gonna kill me tomorrow. i just had more reasons to hate mondays in school:
social studies- we're supposed to make a water clock and pass it on friday. and my groupmates are like O__o. i have no idea how to do it.
math-read nancy drew. it was way better than my math teacher yelling every few minutes. (true!)
i ate very little during recess. i ate 1/4 of the contents of nips because i didn't eat breakfast and my classmates asked for some of my food. [thank you!] i just needed some sugar because i didn't want to fall asleep in
biology-experiment. we heated chemicals in test tubes and everything. i tried it a bit and i felt the stuff in the test tube boiling. haha
i ate beef something for lunch, took a capsule of absorbic acid and tons of juice.
filipino-Sir Ancheta was soo scary. He would hit the black board, tables, chairs, almost everything actually. haha.
english-i love this subject. i copied a lot and paid attention to the teacher then he made us construct sentences by group and my effin groupmates were like, "van, you're really good at this, you know.. why don't you just make the sentences?" like i had a choice.. then our teacher said it was gonna be homework instead and it was gonna be done individually instead and they were all, "van, do ours and you won't have to pay the 120 pesos you owe us." see, i promised that i wouldn't look or talk to him all day and when they would catch me looking, i'll pay them. but i can't help but look at him..how stupid of me.

the keys on this keyboard are so damn soft i want to type forever. i love typing on this.. parang laptop! haha.
i'm listening to courage by superchick right now. beautiful song!


Sometimes it's just a smile or maybe just a look, but it means a whole hell of a lot more than anything you could ever say.

i'm right here at my mom's friend's internet cafe. opening night tonight-free surfing! lol. i sound like a kid. i only went here because i thought this cafe's o.s. was windows vista and it's my brother's time in using the computer right now. sucks, i know. i have 4 siblings. tracy, my college sister, my brother, my twin-that's valerie. there's so much food here, i hate food. i'm just gonna sit here and type all night. lol. i don't understand why some people are so excited about i know who killed me. i already watched it on dvd. of course it's fake, but the images were clear enough for me to see how stupid it was. haha. i'm not gonna be a spoiler and tell what's gonna happen in the movie of course. we all have our own opinions. and i respect them.

monday tomorrow. i hate mondays at school. we have our institutional assembly and everyone is there. the elementary, high school and college departments and the sun's so hot but the grass is so wet. it's a good thing we wear long sleeves on mondays and wednesday(novena at the open stage, high school only) so that my skin won't get dark. haha. but we wear long sleeves on fridays too, and we have our real mass in the gym and its soo damn hot and crowded in there. we have to sit with all the highschool students because the gradeschool kids can't "compress". some Catholic school..i went to yahoo answers last night and asked about my homework. i have my homework for bio now. yey me!

gimme more full video is gonna be out tomorrow. can't wait! ;]

second post today. drama here at our house. my mom yelled at me on the phone because me dad was being an a-hole again. even though i get major stressed with school, i still wish i have school today to keep me away from all this drama coz its like freaking annoying. anyway, i'm not finished with my biology homework yet. urgh, i hate biology. can someone please tell me what structures distinguish prokaryotes from eukaryotes?
i'm so fat. i hate this! i weigh like 90 pounds now. grr.. i must lose at least 5 pounds.
i'm so glad i finally know how to put up HTML on blogger. been dying to edit. i'm like in<3 with HTML again. pwaha

well i don't really know why i made this site. got bored probably, lol. okay i'm really new with blogger but i hope this would all work out. I have a diary, but i only write the stuff that i would imagine other people to read because i think that when i die, [at this age] people would check out my diary for my private thoughts because they think they'd probably find some explanation or some sort of my craziness so i'm just gonna write EVERYTHING here coz my parents don't know how to use effing computers. lol

i try to hide it in school but it's been very obvious, so..i'm from a broken family. my mom and dad are separated and i sleep at my mom's during weekends and at my dad's on schooldays because i couldn't concentrate on school if i'm with my mother and my twin sister who's grades are like, erm. my parents including my eldest sister have this expectation that my grades would be ecstatic or something so i try. i used to love tracy so much and she loved me too but now i'm really praying that she doesn't stop reviewing for her board exams in davao so that she wont go home because i don't want to have to deal with her once more. i thought she loved me, turns out, she only loved who she thought i was. ever since she found out about me having a boyfriend she's been all, "i expected more from you!" and its really heart-breaking to hear someone you love so much say that to you. i mean, after everything i did for her, she's supposed to accept it and just tell me to stop, not hate me! i mean, i slept all alone in her dorm during the summer just so that she could be with her boyfriend who's in the states now. urgh! but i can't hate her.. she's my sister.. i know.